My life now.

I feel like im on a steady river, unlike last semester which I had so many science classes and had stress. I am still stressed but less then preious years. My hair is actually thicke and long the way it used to be thank GOD. Life is Good. "Fuck a man" I always say. Men are the most stupidest of all creatures. They are unable to read & such moody beings. Being Drama Free is a great feeling. I don't need a man at the moment..im way too busy focusing on myself. Trying to set a foundation for my children, working my way toward being independent. But if a brotha wanna come up and say "whats good" I never turn them down ;) I see a lot of relationships where their is no sparkle, no shine, no vibrations of love and its all FAKE. I dont want that. I want to be so head over heals for someone that I jut want to be with them every minute. I want to be able to feel what I felt for Izzy summer of 2009. He showed me what a true man is suppose to feel like. He showed me things no one eles could have ever taught me. & helped make the person I am today. He told me it was alright to think the way I thought, Do the things I would do and overall be the person I was. He never judged me and let me be the educated idiot that I am. He is the reason that I did not give a fuck anymore what people thought. Some people like to get defensive and say shit to prove their point and I hate people like that, he told me to just let idiots talk and listen, and just let them be and not say anything. I miss him, but I no longer fekt what I felt with him. I miss being his QUEEN and he wanted me back as of a month ago and he kept trying but he stopped texting me. Which is truly sad. School will always be my priority and its sad how I cant focus on anything eles. Other then that right now I'm cool being single. Im mingling but from previous experience men are idiots and im not getting attached the way I once was. For now im just gonna let life take its course. I know some say men will come to you, "let them find you". But if one doesnt help mother nature take its course, how can one expect to find." afterall my dad always generally says "EL QUE NO BUSCA NO ENCUENTRA" so for now im cool.