I hate the fact that im a nice person, sometimes i let people slide all over me. I can never stay mad and it irritates me. Why cant people understand their word. Why cant people keep commitments to me. why must I always forgive. WHY CANT I BE MEAN BACK? (questions of my inner personal thoughts)
---> I wish I could be a bitch, I wish I could treat other the way people treat me, I wish I was able to express what I feel more bluntly
sometimes I remind myself of the blind man (Ezra) from 7 pounds and how he let will smith treat him like shit, but it was simply a test of how nice he truly was & how he truly deserved Will smith's eyes when he died & ezra was able to see again. When in any situation that people will bitch up at me or talk shit or do something to hurt me. I think it's a test from God to see how capable I am of dealing with it & forgiving them. After all it is a commandment isnt it? forgive thy neighbor. this sense can sometimes be brutal & painful but in the end it will be FULL FILLING.
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