why

why do I feel like helga pataki all of a sudden. I finally understand the emmotion she had when she saw arnold. LOL <3333

tsk tsk fake

As a capricorn woman I'm a very good judge of character. I may have many flaws, but I believe god gave me that gift. I think I have a filter of detecting people's true personalities. I'm one of those people that will show respect to everyone & will say hi and all to not be rude. But will I actually associate? no, no thank you. my limits go to a certain extent but then again everyone is different. As I always say, I don't give second chances. I believe that once done what will stop a person from once again making the same mistake. 90% of  cheating cases ends up with the person cheating again. Therefore i don't believe in second chances. Once someone defines anything, I quickly back away...SLOWLY. Of course I know everyone isnt perfect but it all depends on the situation. If it is tiny things of course I will let it slide, no big whoopie to fuss over. but when things get critical and intense thats how you know that person's true nature. Then their are those people who have a really good way of FAKING their way back in and fooling people thinking they are a different person. when it comes to that point alexandria perez has a very good radar. I have experienced too much to fall for that nonsense and wont waste my time in fake people. They say vibes spread like wild fire. after all they do say "dime con quien andas y te digo quien eres." These negative vibes need to stop spreading. My oppinion is that  these vibes spread onto people until they too are infected like a virus. I've seen it happen, its happend to me in the past and it took a very good friend to tell me. Cruel world out there. Hope everyone is wearing their  condom to protect them from all the fakeness out there *muah

God is good.

God has truly blessed me with so much. I'm soo happy. My karma is probably a rainbow but nonetheless it is bright :)

happiness

I swear when things are going great for me and im so happy on top of the world. things always go sour. Why is that? IDK. im gonna brush it off and keep on striving. I'm so happy right now with life that nothing eles matters. I will always GIVE a fuck, and try to keep a equilibrium of peace in my life and will strive to fight for it. Only thing on my mind is.." I must be doing SOMETHING right." So as for now I will blast this on my headphones and be happy
yippity yap yap yippity yap yap yap :* muaaaaaah*

SHAKE THEM DICE AND ROLL EM SHAKE THEM DICE AND ROLL EM

wifey..

OMG wife!! your confusing me!! make it clearer misss you ps: ALWAYS.

im just saying you could do better

I think me and my mains are connected mentally. It's like when my cells light up theirs do as well. I miss high school, since I saw them every single day but now that we're in different locations its harder to have that bond but nonetheless my crew is one of the few that have kept fighting to stay together for the longest. Im still proud to say that we are still best friends and although many would like to argue that we are not and we have seperated, thos people are ill minded and cant judge my relationship with these women. Whenever one of us has a problem the other one is always there to pick you up. I talked to my girls every week and see them whenever we can. I love them. They are similar to me. I get my positive attitude and girly vibes from Kathy. My "be real" and streetlike swagg from tiffany and my caring nature from laura. I WISH I WAS BACK HOME RIGHT NOW, MY MAIN NEEDS ME AND SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW IT. People in my oppinion need other people's oppinion so they can hear a different prospective. If you have similair prospectives you can only think one way you need different oppinions and people...let me save you from making a mistake baby girl *Muah

Good week

This week has been amazing, I've been working, I've been taking it easy, going out, etc. I love living a chill life, but soon it will fade thanks to midterms. Jorey is not home so it's really quiet. To be honest I like it quiet like this. I love being with people but then their comes a point where you just want to chill by yourself and listen to your type of music. SPEAKING OF... My music style is slowly changing, I'm getting into that indie underground hip hop/ r&b. I love the Weeknd he's my new favorite artist, sorry Drake I finally found someone as equally talented as you are. yet I still love them both as equal my ovoxo babies<33

An Article I found:

"The Weeknd's vocals are slowly pitch-shifted as each verse builds, revealing the demonic core of his lyrics.  It’s a simple but surprisingly effective trick:  by the time he starts screaming at his victim’s girlfriends as he goes down her, his level of self-loathing repulsion finds an analogue in the screwed-down voice that comes rumbling out of your speakers."

wow I guess my mom was right; it is satanic after all.. SIKE! I love it :>

Thursday..

shout out to OCTOBER'S VERY OWN music production company for supplying me with the best two artists, Drake and The Weeknd. Since it's according to the weeknd, THIRSTY THURSDAY, i will have a ovoxo music night in my dorm tonight..rock on boys.

WHY

WHY ON EARTH MUST I ALWAYS END UP WITH MEN THAT ARE OF THE CANCER SIGN OF THE HOROSCOPE??

you ahh daa waan

Just got some great work done in the bio lab. THANK YOU SO MUCH TO KARYN RAMIREZ who came along with. Your presence truly was needed in the bio lab. Withought you I wouldnt have gotten a lot don you are a true friend till the end. You pull me aside when somethings not right talk to me till the end of the night, and I would go till the ends of the earth if you ever needed something. YOUR A TRUE FRIEND. I LOVE YOU

yooou ahhhh daaa waaan; your love is my love, my love is yours :) xoxo

UGH..

EVERY TIME I SEE RIHANNA'S VIDEO FOR WE FOUND LOVE I THINK OF YOU
 & THE THINGS WE WOULD DO

WHY AM I SOOO SPRUNG TODAY??? IDK BARF*

        what can I say I guess we found love in a Hopeless plaace

you daa one that I think about alwayss.

 

In some sense I think If I had to relate to one celebrity i'd be Rihanna for 8 Reasons

1.) WE HAVE THE SAME TASTE

(i love all her videos, we have the same swagg)

2.) WE BOTH LOVE DRAKE

(gorgeous hunk of man)

3.) SHE DOESNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HER SWAG

(at first I was shy but now I dont care)

4.) SHE'S OBSESSED WITH HEADBANDS

(I love headbands)

5.) I CAN SO RELATE TO ALL HER SONGS

(she's singing about alexandria's life)

6.)SHE'S STILL IN LOVE WITH A PREVIOUSLOVE

(no comment)

7)HER NAIL POLISH CHANGES IN EVERY VIDEO

(my nails polish changes every week)

8.) SHE'S A FUN GOOFY PERSON

(im a fun goofy person ;] )

 YOU DA ONE

hahah I love this line

why must I fall back?

 

June 26th 2009

No one ask why I remember the date..

Miss this tho.. 

My life now.

I feel like im on a steady river, unlike last semester which I had so many science classes and had stress. I am still stressed but less then preious years. My hair is actually thicke and long the way it used to be thank GOD. Life is Good. "Fuck a man" I always say. Men are the most stupidest of all creatures. They are unable to read & such moody beings. Being Drama Free is a great feeling. I don't need a man at the moment..im way too busy focusing on myself. Trying to set a foundation for my children, working my way toward being independent. But if a brotha wanna come up and say "whats good" I never turn them down ;) I see a lot of relationships where their is no sparkle, no shine, no vibrations of love and its all FAKE. I dont want that. I want to be so head over heals for someone that I jut want to be with them every minute. I want to be able to feel what I felt for Izzy summer of 2009. He showed me what a true man is suppose to feel like. He showed me things no one eles could have ever taught me. & helped make the person I am today. He told me it was alright to think the way I thought, Do the things I would do and overall be the person I was. He never judged me and let me be the educated idiot that I am. He is the reason that I did not give a fuck anymore what people thought. Some people like to get defensive and say shit to prove their point and I hate people like that, he told me to just let idiots talk and listen, and just let them be and not say anything. I miss him, but I no longer fekt what I felt with him. I miss being his QUEEN and he wanted me back as of a month ago and he kept trying but he stopped texting me. Which is truly sad. School will always be my priority and its sad how I cant focus on anything eles. Other then that right now I'm cool being single. Im mingling but from previous experience men are idiots and im not getting attached the way I once was. For now im just gonna let life take its course. I know some say men will come to you, "let them find you". But if one doesnt help mother nature take its course, how can one expect to find." afterall my dad always generally says "EL QUE NO BUSCA NO ENCUENTRA" so for now im cool.

This weekend.

This weekend. so this weekend was great hada long talk with tiffany about life and I loved every minute of it. I ometimes forget how similair we are and how she truly is my #1 best friend. Although we hate eachothers guts..but hey plato once said "If you do not argue with a friend then your relationship is not real" truth of the matter is that I needed to see my friends. I need my city kids. I also saw my friend bella. Bella and I have been friends since freshmen year and I must say she is now more easy to get along with, we went to nations and went shopping. ps: DID I MENTION I LOVE DRIVING AND HAVING INSURANCE? I can pick up whoever and do whatever I love it THANKS MOM. But this weekend was great, I have a lot of aquintances, but I also have an abundant amount of people I could just call and hang out with. Most people. just have 2-3 go to girls back home. I have 8 -10 God blessed me with so many close friends. ICA was a great pick of a high school for me. I've known these people since I was 14 & now im 21. Crazy how time flies. Cant wait till summer xo

Valentines Day

MY Valentines Day, Thi year turned out to be one of the best. I woke feeling so-so but the day got better. I had anatomy that day so I was nit looking forward to go in there and not know anyhing but surprisingly I didnt. I tend to be very familiar with the nervous system surprisingly so I was recognized as knowing alot from it. So that class plassed by really quickly. Then I had Maxwell's Philosophy class. The night before at 5om I found out my portfolio and essay were due so I quickly worked on it and got it done. When we walked into class he announced class was canceled as Vday gift & to just turn in our porftfolios and head out which was AMAZING I love that skinny lil guy "aghh aggh aghh".  Then I came  home and Karyn and I went for burgers at the counter I got the sauted onion & chipotle type with a pretzel bun, SOO GOOD. Then we went shopping and I arrived back to my dorm to find these lovely rainbow deisies from Jorey. sucha sweet person <3 soo blessed to have good roomates. The rest of Valentines day was fun aswell we ordered pizza hut pasta and watched dance moms which was awsome as always. Then around 12 Jose came to share that his boo is ommited to him, not in a relationship but committed which is pretty close. But still I dont think this is a good match and that she does not have the same intention as she does. I HATE SEEING GOOD PEOPLE BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF. I didnt want to kill his joy so I told him how hppy I was and complimented his outfit he looked really good surprisingly DEUCES *MUAAAAH

lonely star

possibly my newest favorite after montreal

cooled down.

I love the weeknd ALWAYS CHEERS ME UP, kuddos to him & his music #toast

BOSS BONES IN MY BODY

im going home

tommoro I will be on a bus home, back to my city where no one can tell me nothing and I am a free woman from this isolated living space I call school *baaaarf


---> I need a much needed catch up sessions with people like me.. my main ones<33

anabolic hormones

I hate the fact that im a nice person, sometimes i let people slide all over me. I can never stay mad and it irritates me. Why cant people understand their word. Why cant people keep commitments to me. why must I  always forgive. WHY CANT I BE MEAN BACK? (questions of my inner personal thoughts)

---> I wish I could be a bitch, I wish I could treat other the way people treat me, I wish I was able to express what I feel more bluntly

sometimes I remind myself of the blind man (Ezra) from 7 pounds and how he let will smith treat him like shit, but it was simply a test of how nice he truly was & how he truly deserved Will smith's eyes when he died & ezra was able to see again. When in any situation that people will bitch up at me or talk shit or do something to hurt me. I think it's a test from God to see how capable I am of dealing with it & forgiving them. After all it is a commandment isnt it? forgive thy neighbor. this sense can sometimes be brutal & painful but in the end it will be FULL FILLING.

Just being silly again

King mufasa at his best

club paradise

 Yo, so today was a weird day. I had an epiphany in anatomy class that just made me realize you know fuck it I'm just gonna change my major. I can be successful in other things I am willing to take a chance, I hope this feeling doesn't end. I'm gonna change majors, I don't care who approves I dont care who i let down I AM DOING THIS FOR ME. it's clearly not working anymore and I need a change. Today is weird day in general. It feels like its 4:45 but its really 1:58. I hope Maria asks Jose if we can go out to target because lord knows I need to get a few items. I feel like making some huge changes..IDK what to do though. I feel like I should be doing something..hmm maybe i'll just sleep & relax im so over everything. deuces :*

Their is no place like HOME

I wish I was home. I look at the life I had and the life that im living and I truly see the difference. Although I Love getting a higher education, I miss home. I miss hanging out after school and walking down 24th street with my friends. I miss the city life. I miss my friends coming over daily and my parents telling me they have to lay off coming over all the time. I miss going to school functions and my friends coming over to get ready and having that utter mess of lipstick eyeshadow, accesories, and shoes and clothes everywhere. I can truly say that I made the most of my senior and junior year. I had a lot of friends and I miss them dearly. I know they all went on to colleges far away and the summers are always beautiful seeing them. But sometimes i just wish they were here with me at NDNU. I miss them.. all of them. If so, Im sure my life here would be completely different. I MISS ICA

Her man...

Soo, I respect people get in relationships but my roomate has been constantly bringing her BF over and im tired of it since we're in the same region of the dorm. I mean If I had a boyfriend he's be over too but come on, he leaves at 12! Im tired of having to deal with this! This isnt a brothel of men.. go have your sex OUTSIDE! sheesh! someone shoot me -THANKS

LOL

 

Saw This and Instantly Thought of Karyn....

Where the F is Karyn.

 So, Today Jorey is really sick. And me being the weak immune system person that I am, and dead scared. I get sick so easily it's amazing. I have big plans this weekend and seriously hope I dont get sick RAWR. Currently Jose took Joreyto the hospitol so it's just me and Maria. Surprisingly we've been getting along great this week. She even brought us back in and out last night # winning! ughh im so scared about Anatomy I really should be studying somebody shoot me why is life so damn hard! and which brings me to the point  WHERE THE FUCK IS KARYN?
 (Please Enjoy my Latest obsession Montreal-The Weeknd)